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Genius of Love and Lonlieness

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Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Sun Apr 29, 2018 2:34 pm

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One.
There is distance between us
Unspoken
I am
Standing on the other side
Of a wide casam


I am vexed with you
Are you?
Or do you relish my skin?
Yearn for my lips?
Because I yearn yours.

I see you
In my sleep,
A strange apparition.
Your blue eyes and
Touchable hair
Sparkling laugh

Why did we do this?
Why do you torture me?
I believe that
I lust for you because you once did for me.
But who's to say.
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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Sun Apr 29, 2018 2:58 pm

Two.


I sit alone
My back to a wall
My eyes to a paper

I laugh alone
It echoes
Eerie and rare

I walk alone
Music drowning out
The corrosive contemplations
That corrupt my head

I am alone
But I am not really
The murmurs of my aberration
Susurate

The ramblings of a madman
Inside me
Fluttering butterflies
Thousands inside my chassis
Neverending

I have become the madman

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Sun Apr 29, 2018 3:07 pm

Three.
Scars
Adorn me
Contrails in the sky

Standing in the mirror
Scowling
At the beast

I fear curves
Blooming from my body
I fear blood
Timed with the moon

Make me a child
Again
Unending innocence and
heedlessness

Make me beautiful again
Sharp
Hollow

All I want is to be free

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Mon Apr 30, 2018 2:48 am

Four.
Love
What a peculiar
entity.

I believe
I was in love
Once.
She was scared of me.

We were both sick.
School, society
Anxiety
Made us that way.

I loved her
Long after she left.
Until she confessed
She was content
With normality.

Falling out of love
Is much like falling in.
Gradually,
Until days feel different.
Nothing is ever the
Same
After.

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Mon Apr 30, 2018 6:32 am

Five.
The night
I tried to end my life
And almost
Succeeded.

I thought of
Nothing.
I had a task
I was going to
Triumph.
Just once,
This time.

When I awoke,
I tried to believe it didn't happen.
That I was still asleep.

Narcan flowed through my veins.
Nausea,
Contractions and churning.
Dizzy,
A rollercoaster of spins and sways.
Sick.

I didn't realize how sick I had been
For so long.
I had forgotten
To talk to my
Friends.
My obsession
Overtook my being.

I became repulsed
With myself
My body
A drowned rat,
A beaten dog.

I became disenchanted
WIth life
With love
WIth my heart.

I sometimes wish I died that night
I often am glad I didn't.

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Tue May 01, 2018 4:36 am

Six.
My heart
feels like
It's being weighed down
By bricks

Stacked on top of one another
Building and building
Until I can't breathe

Struggling, writhing
Twisting and turning
An injured animal

I lay in bed,
breathing ragged and labored

It's okay, Its okay
It's
Okay


Lonlieness and
What it does to an animal

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Tue May 01, 2018 7:59 am

Seven.
Inhale,
Exhale.
Rushing.
Dizzy.
Lines blur.
Absoluteness fades.

Serene.

Dancing of the smoke.
To figures
Twirl and
Flirt.
Slowly dissipating
Into carbon.

Back to the present!
Harsh reality,
Sharp,
Unforgiving.

One more

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Tue May 01, 2018 7:59 am

Eight.
The heady smell of garlic
And onions.

The shadows
of dog days

Bikes
Strewn across
The lawn
Decorations of the middle-class

Walking home
From school
Hot sun beating down
Quiet
Mirages
On the ground
Mirrors to the sky

The relief of leaving
Freezing enclosures
Eyes of cruel children
Uncaring teachers

The peace of my
Mothers arms

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Re: Genius of Love and Lonlieness

Post by Rembrandt » Tue May 15, 2018 6:45 am

Nine.


I shed my skin
Every new sunburst.
Wearing it on my shoulder.

I sweep
The salty drops that gather on the floor
I clean the pots
I do the laundry

I function

Filling my passing life with
Swirls of my pen
The clicking of my keyboard
The turning of the pages

The clockwork of my brain
Depends on
The sun
The rain.
Each breath,
Hypnotic and repetitive.

Heartbeats turn to Meals
Meals turn to bedtime routines
Routines turn into therapy appointments.
The turning of the earth
Coming full circle.

I say
I'm doing just fine
I deny myself
The realization that I am not.

I waste with every
Drop of the disco ball

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