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by Eri
Sat Mar 30, 2019 3:24 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: Eri's Very Dorky Essays on Books & Poetry
Replies: 0
Views: 333

Eri's Very Dorky Essays on Books & Poetry

Beloved and the Embodied Ghost [/size][/i] Online copy available here! Beloved , a confronting yet beautiful novel by renowned author Toni Morrison, is a fascinating study regarding repressed memory, its inability to heal pain, and the danger of uncovering buried trauma. The novel’s title refers to...
by Eri
Sat Sep 08, 2018 7:42 pm
Forum: Private Roleplays
Topic: Lilac Wine. [ rick x eri ]
Replies: 1
Views: 691

Lilac Wine. [ rick x eri ]

In the blue smoke, between a piano key and the drop of a voice, I watched as shadows dripped over your shoulders, reluctant to let you go and in that moment, the words slipped from my lips. Underneath the hot white lights, surrounded by faceless gods in this smoky gin joint, air shot through my lung...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:51 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

126.

I have scarcely left you
When you go in me, crystalline,

Bury me, tonight. Make love to my ghost for years to come.
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:50 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

125. You hand me my drink and I throw it in your face. I feel old, I feel ancient, the ocean before it let her grasp on land go. My mind is lapping, overlapping, water. Water, on my fingertips, water like alcohol on your face, your chiselled, beautiful face. Each angle, carefully measured. Each cur...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:49 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

124. You’re the problem— I’m the problem. I wish I could tell you that it has been a long time since I have believed in love. I wish I could tell you that, by some haphazard butchering of my childhood, the credence had all but decayed. No, what I have is infinitely worse—a persistent belief continu...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:49 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

123. I was a child, licking honey from your fingertips, fed by your frightening dreams. You had never once tried to hide glances for other women from me, yet I had hidden them myself, satisfied with how little I knew. The walls around me, I had built myself, and in my hatred of you, I had glorified...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:48 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

122. I am a puppet injected with your voice. I am a blank canvas marred only by your name. I am your grandmother’s Absinthe, your mother’s overzealous pride. I am every woman who overlooked you in childhood, and every woman who claws their way into your exquisite four-poster bed. I am the taste of ...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:47 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

121. In a sense, you were half the men I’d ever met. You are exhausting, a never ending goddamn cliff that just goes on and on, up and up. What was it that Einstein once said? The difference between stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits? Limitless, that’s what you are. And as you stand...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:46 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

ERIS 120. Here I am, forever indebted, waiting. Always, waiting. Waiting for when you will call for me. Waiting for when you will need me. Unashamed of your shame, unabashed by the way you disguise my existence. It is of no importance to me. “There you are.” Smirking, the summer sun reflected on yo...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:44 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

119. I met Leon by accident shortly after Aten met Anna. I didn’t know who he was, only that he was beautiful and lonely. He played guitar for me, and I started to cry. He told me he loved me. I told him I loved him too. When Aten told me about Anna, I was happy for him. I was happy—and I didn’t kn...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:42 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

118. “Ione. Tonight is the most drunk I’ve ever been.” I stared at the phone. “Are you okay?” “I’m sorry for everything between us.” “Aten—” “I’ll talk to you later. Someone’s helping me with this—” I laughed, strained— “Don’t be sorry. I still plan to hunt you down and move in when we’re old and w...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:41 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

117. January, 2013. My life was falling apart, and I grasped at whatever thread I could, a semblance of normalcy. I had dated three others after Aten, but it was the last relationship that tipped everything over the edge of chaos. The one thing that reminded me how to wake up every morning was Aten...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:40 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

116. “Hey, we can still make out, right?” I laughed. “What the fuck, Aten?” “I’m drunk! Be nice. Just asking.” “I’m trying to be a good friend!” “Me too!” Pause. “By making out with me? Honey, friends don’t do that to be nice.” “It’ll be fun.” “It would be the start of never being done ever until o...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:39 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

115. October 2012
From: Ione
To: Aten


(No Subject)

Hello.

I read your email.

I’ll see you around.


by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:38 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

114. Your problem with me is that you have always tried to understand me. I cannot be understood. Remember when I told you about thinking of people I know and having to choose between two of them with the other dying? I shouldn’t think about things like that. It wasn’t amusing for me to think about...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:36 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

ILLAPA 113. September 2012 From: Aten To: Ione I’m not as sweet as I’ve led you. I am not any one character at any given time nor are these my only personalites, but they are personalities that are a part of me. A. This is the personality that I exhibit most often. I only have a few very close frie...
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:28 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

62.

Strange nights like this one, when I put away the food, or stare at the dishes and wish it was our home, together.

Aten’s friend invited me to her wedding in his state, maybe his city. I confess: I would give almost anything to see him.
by Eri
Fri Sep 07, 2018 11:28 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

61.

When I left college to go home for the holidays, I didn’t talk to Ione at all.

This is the one time that I think I can say that I truly forgot about her completely.

She wasn’t even in the back of my mind.
by Eri
Wed Sep 05, 2018 11:25 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

60. My name is Ione. I’m the girl who can never be wrong. I am afraid of many things. I wear a facade to make people think that I am invincible, but if I love you, you have the power to break me with just a few words. I am afraid that I create ideals of people and force them to fit into my cookie-c...
by Eri
Wed Sep 05, 2018 11:24 am
Forum: Original Works
Topic: OVER - a memoir.
Replies: 77
Views: 4926

Re: OVER - a memoir.

59. My name is Aten. Attention must always be placed on me. I pretend that nothing bothers me, but most things in fact do bother me—I’m just not man enough to say it. I can’t handle being with a group of people, because I want everyone’s attention and I can’t have it. Red is my favorite colour, bec...